It was a story that finally revealed to the world that the “Arab Spring” might not have been as peaceful as some would have liked to think. CBS journalist Lara Logan was viciously sexually assaulted while in a crowd of male protesters in Egypt. They screamed “Jew” as they ran their hands over and through her body and tried to rip off her scalp. She detailed the incident back then, and now, she reveals she still struggles with it.
“People don’t really know that much about (post traumatic stress disorder),” she told the New York Daily News. “There’s something called latent PTSD. It manifests itself in different ways. I want to be free of it, but I’m not.”
“It doesn’t go away,” she added. “It’s not something I keep track of. It’s not predictable like that. But it happens more than I’d like.”
Logan was eventually rescued from the assault by a woman clad in black who wrapper her arms around Logan. Other women eventually closed ranks. But while the physical damage has healed, the emotional scars still exist.
“Your family is critical,” Logan, the married mother of two, said. “You can’t do it alone. My husband is a great support. He understands, he doesn’t hide from it, from what happened. He knows everything, more than anyone, what they did to me.”
“When I’m lying there, waiting for my daughter to go to sleep, I have time to think about things. Those can be dark moments. You ranger through, you have to. You’re aware of how much you have and it’s so much more than what you’ve lost. You have a responsibility. Life is not about dwelling on the bad.”
But despite the residual effects, Logan is fighting. Not only is she fighting to give a prominent voice to the many women who have suffered from sexual assault, she’s also fighting not to be defined by the attack.
“Goddamnit,” Logan said, “I’m not going to give them everything.”