Brittany Maynard, who suffers from terminal brain cancer, shocked the world when she recently announced that she would be willingly ending her life on November 1, but in a new video released Wednesday, the 29 year old said that she might wait a bit longer.
While she made it clear that she still plans to end her life before getting too sick, Maynard, who suffers from stage IV glioblastoma multiform, claimed that this might not be the right time after all.
"I still feel good enough and I still have enough joy and I still laugh and smile with my family and friends enough that it doesn't seem like the right time right now," she said. "But it will come, because I feel myself getting sicker. It's happening each week."
Maynard, who said she still walks outdoors with her husband, spends time with family and has been checking items off of her bucket list, described some of the seizures and medical issues she has had in recent weeks.
"My most terrifying set of seizures was about a week or so ago. I had two in a day, which is unusual," she said, noting that she often times has trouble speaking afterward.
Maynard also said that she barely recognizes her own body, as the disease and medications have profoundly changed her.
"In the last three months, I've gained over 25 pounds and over nothing I've put in my mouth except for [medicine]," she said. "I'm not full of self hate or loathing — it's just that my body has changed so quickly. You really stop recognizing yourself in a way."
While she believes it's highly unlikely she that will live through this ordeal, Maynard said, "If all my dreams came true, I would somehow survive this."
Maynard also addressed her critics in the clip, noting that it hurts her to be judged by those who disagree with her decision.
"When people criticize me for not waiting longer, or, you know, whatever they've decided is best for me, it hurts," she said.
Watch Maynard's new video below:
As TheBlaze previously reported, Maynard recently joined Compassion & Choices, a group that supports doctor-assisted suicide, in launching the Brittany Maynard Fund in an effort to help legalize death with dignity laws in states across the U.S.
Rather than suffer through until the end with her own illness, Maynard made the decision earlier this year to move with her husband to Oregon — a state where doctor assisted suicide is legal — and end her life on her own terms, initially selecting November 1 as the chosen date. Read more about that here.
According to the Christian Post, Maynard recently completed her bucket list with a visit to the Grand Canyon in Arizona.
(H/T: Daily Mail)