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Woman's Message Goes Viral: 'My Husband Is a Police Officer and I Owe You an Apology

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“He’s just better than me.”

Dallas police officers comfort each other in front of police cars decorated as a public memorial Friday, July 8, 2016, in Dallas in front of police headquarters, in honor of police who were killed Thursday in shootings. (AP Photo/Gerald Herbert)

A blog post written by a police officer’s wife last year has gone viral following a shooting in Dallas that left five police officers dead last week.

In a blog post for Uniformstories.com, Melissa Littles, the author of Bullets in the Washing Machine and the founder of "The Police Wife Life, LLC," wrote that she owes the reader an apology because her husband, Sergeant Bervis Littles, is “better than me.”

“You see, my husband took an oath to be committed to you and your safety, regardless of whether or not that takes him from me. I never took that oath, and I’m beginning to wonder if you’re worth it,” Littles wrote. “As I said, he’s better than me.”


“He’s better than me because he’s never cared if you see him for his worth or not,” Littles wrote. “He doesn’t care if you have any respect for him or if you loathe him. He will still be there for you. He will help you. He will save you. He will stand in front of your bullet to save an innocent behind him. I don’t think you’re worth it, and I apologize for not being as good of a person to you as he is.”

“I don’t want to run to save you if it means I might not make it home to my husband," she wrote. "I would never want to stand in front of a bullet to save a stranger if it meant my children would never have their mother again. I apologize, but you’re not worth that to me. Thank God, you’re worth it to my husband. He’s better than me.”

Littles continued:

“I’m sorry for resenting you when I have never met you. I am sorry for wishing my husband didn’t care about you the way he does. I’m sorry for being selfish and wishing lately he were a plumber or a dentist and not the one who would race in to save you, a total stranger, who would most likely never know how much he means to me. I’m sorry for not being the person I used to be, but you have made it hard to keep caring about you more than the father of my children, my best friend, my partner in this life.

I’m sorry for allowing you to make me fearful and angry and resentful when I’ve never even met you. I’m sorry for seeing bricks and rocks and trashcans ablaze being hurled at officers on live television and wishing you ill will. I’m sorry for seeing credible threats of violence aimed at officers across this country and, in turn, feeling hatred towards you when I’ve never met you."

Littles added that she's sorry she wonders if her husband - who is black - is safer due to the color of his skin.

"I’m sorry for allowing myself to be reduced to a person who wonders if race could help keep him alive," she wrote.

"I’m a Christian and I know those feelings are born of weakness. I’m human, so is my husband,” Littles wrote. “He’s just better than me.”

According to Uniformstories.com, at press time, Little's post had been read over 400,000 times. Read the rest of Little’s post here.

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