Michelle Malkin, a conservative commentator and blogger, uttered the words no new mother wants to say after giving birth as she watched her child being taken away.
"Is she all right? Is she going to be OK?!" Malkin recalled shouting at the doctors 15 years ago this week when her daughter, Veronica, was born underweight and jaundiced.
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Now, Malkin is thinking those same thoughts again.
In the blog post, Malkin let her readers into the world of medical uncertainty and worry she has been facing as her teen daughter is facing breathing issues and doctors do not know yet what's causing it:
Just before Mother’s Day weekend, however, she started having what appeared to be respiratory trouble. She “couldn’t get a good breath” and began gently gasping and sighing for air every few minutes. Two trips to the ER later, she had been administered ibuprofen for “costochondritis” and then albuterol to open up her airways.
The problem is that all the various tests and exams indicate she’s getting plenty of oxygen. Her lungs, heart and vocal cords are all “normal,” and yet she describes a chronic feeling that she’s “drowning.” Every day begins with gasping beyond her control, multiple times a minute, nonstop, every hour of every day, until she reaches a point of exhaustion at 1 or 2 in the morning.
After a brief respite while sleeping, the day-mare starts all over again.
Malkin went on to say that breathing itself is not the only issue anymore either. Veronica, she said, has choked while eating and drinking due to this condition as well.
"It has been agonizing to watch her suffer while waiting weeks and months on end to see an increasingly short supply of specialists," she wrote. "It is more agonizing knowing that, despite obtaining the best care possible for her, we still don’t really know what’s going on."
In honor of her daughter's birthday, Malkin explained that she sees Veronica as her "hero," living up to her namesake of St. Veronica with courage as she faces this hardship.
Malkin said that while she "[puts] on a good game face for work and public functions," she thinks of her daughter every minute with the same thoughts she had on the day she was born.
Read Malkin's full post on her blog.