Actress and Fox News personality Stacey Dash opened up about why she chose life during her unplanned pregnancy in an interview with People.
"Sometimes my past is extraordinarily heavy," Dash said, discussing her new book "There Goes My Social Life." "That's when I scream and cry until I feel like I can breathe again."
Dash said that after she was sexually abused as a child, she began to use drugs. "I couldn't find happiness," Dash said. "It got to a point where I didn't even want to live anymore. The voice in my head was saying, 'There's nothing here for you.'"
She was still using drugs when she became pregnant with her boyfriend Christopher Williams. After learning she was pregnant she decided to have an abortion.
But she didn’t go through with it.
"When I got pregnant, I was doing a lot of drugs and I didn't want to live,” Dash said. “I wanted to die. I was going to have an abortion. I was crying and I said to God, 'Please tell me what to do.' And God told me, 'Keep your son.' I ripped the IV out of my arm and I said, 'I'm keeping my son.'"
Dash said she is open with her son Austin, now 25, and her daughter Lola, 12, about her past.
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"The best way to protect my children is to be honest with them," Dash said. "I let them know that I survived. I'm not a victim. And there is nothing they can't overcome."
Dash added that her life experience has inspired her conservative political views.
"When you get stuff for free, you have no self-worth. When you have no self-worth, you become depressed, addicted and either abused or an abuser,” she said. “This is what perpetuates the cycle of violence in inner cities. We don't need free stuff. We need opportunities."
"When I say there should not be a BET channel or a Black History Month, I'm saying we deserve more," Dash continued. "I just hope people understand that I'm not judging; I'm coming from experience."
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